I Wanted to apologise to the Ladies and Gents at Weston Super Mare FC who were due to see me doing a live Call Collymore and Q&A today.
Unfortunately my mental health is very poor at the moment so although i wanted to come today regardless and see everyone, i’m unable to get there today.
I always promised via twitter to be honest about my mental health journey, and although today it was tempting to say nothing and ride this bout through, i have been poorly now on and off all season and unfortunately getting worse by the week.
My precious exercise has lessened and 18 hour days in bed have become my norm, with suicidal feelings never far away. Sad, but true.
The last 8 years i have had a solid, disciplined regime work and exercise which have given me stability , and as anyone with depression knows, a routine is a central plank of being well. This season has seen several big changes in my life, so that routine has been disrupted, providing fertile ground for depression to set in.
To everyone at Weston, i hope we can reschedule for very soon so that you can see the very best of me and what i do, unfortunately today i am anything but me, so apologies again, and hopefully see you all soon.